Seduced by being alone and terrified of being single!

[Nosexinthiscity]

I am 48, one teen DS and 2 years post separation. Divorce ongoing.

I have been in a relationship for over a year. DP is a great guy although best in small doses. I don't think he is 'the one' but as my marriage was pretty rotten at times and I have no idea if I am self-sabotaging.

Sometimes I fantasise about life on my own..strong, independent woman, sassy, sociable, able to wear pants with holes in and eat toast in bed.

So my question is multi-fold. Is it better to settle for someone who is basically a lovely guy and very nice to look at, just a bit irritating at times and not really the big romance rather than being alone?

I have rarely not been in a relationship. Is spending time being single important or just bloody miserable?

At 48 have I missed the boat? I work in a school and the other staff are generally in their 20s and 30s and I feel ancient sometimes. I never really thought of myself as old until someone was talking about 'old people in their 50s' and I realised that wasn't far off. Am I destined to be alone for the rest of my life, never having sex again and eventually being eaten by the cat?

Hi,
Will try to answer some of your points the best I can.
I’m a 52 yr old male, I’ve worked in the same industry for 25 + yrs and everyone seems younger than me now, but that’s okay as I’m a team leader and a teller, not a doer, I have the experience the younger staff don’t have and you need to remember that now.

I’ve lived alone for the last couple of years, last year was tough as WFH most of the year so was physically alone for long periods of time which was mentally tough but I don’t have to answer to anyone.

As for sex, that’s your choice of course, I’m pretty sure you will find plenty of divorced men in their 40s/50s, more than happy to date a successful woman (and have sex with you of course )