I think that loneliness might have broken my heart

[RehearsalShoes]

I am so, so terribly lonely that it hurts. I can't remember the last time I had any physical affection from anyone.

I'm so tired of being sad but I can't shake off the desire to have a relationship, and maybe eventually a family. I'm 32, but how on earth will I ever manage to have a relationship now? Nothing has ever worked. Nothing.

I watch all my friends and acquaintances do it all so easily and it hurts so badly.

Oh OP. Sending you a massive massive hug. I am sure someone wiser than I will be along shortly to give you great advice. All I can say is I've been where you are, and know how hard it is.

I think if anyone were to give me a hug I would just weep and weep and weep.

OP I'm so sorry If it helps, you are young and I've known many people to find love well after your age! Please don't give up.

Oh my gosh. I don't know what to say- but I am sending sympathy your way, if that counts for anything?

I guess....just thanks for saying something. I think writing your thoughts here could possibly help you. I don't know your situation. Is there any way anybody here could give you any advice?

Oh OP, massive hugs to you. I have been where you are, after a break up I felt all
hope gone.Is there anything you can do to fill your time, take up new hobbies to meet someone? I realise the covid situation doesn't make it easy. Also it may look like your friends make things look easy but nothing is and everyone has their own issues etc behind closed doors. You are still young, I didn't meet my now DF til I was 34 almost 35 and at 38 now we are expecting our first child so you have plenty of time as you are young. Sending hugs.

I don't know what I want anyone to say or do either! I do have friends and acquaintances but it's so hard to confess how terrible it makes me feel.

I do keep myself busy and I have tried lots of things. I did a part-time degree, I volunteered and then I got quite into keeping myself fit. There's nothing else I particularly want to do or try.

Same here OP. Whilst I do have a young child, I'm so so soooo lonely. I've not had a partner for nearly 6 years, no friends and no hugs for at least 6 years. My daughter's Dad is sadly no longer around so I don't even have him...
The only person I speak on the phone to is my Mum, who very obviously doesn't like to speak every day, but she's the only adult I have to speak to, besides a couple of Mums in the school playground who I exchange pleasantries with (not enough to become friends, just small talk!).

I honestly cry when I hear people talking about how they're going to beer gardens/for meals etc or meeting friends for coffee. This time of year is the worst. Everyone is enjoying BBQs and going on family holidays and I'm just a lonely Mum, existing.....

Once a year we go to a Haven caravan park and whilst my DD & I love it, it always destroys me when I'm surrounded by big families, doting daddies, groups of friends on holiday together and all their kids playing together.

I'm not trying to make you feel worse, just letting you know that you're not the only one feeling like this!

Maybe it is this time of year. I'm sorry to hear you're in the same boat. At least you have your lovely DD

@RehearsalShoes, @CervixHaver
Really sorry to hear your feeling so lonely, don’t really have any words of encouragement, but with lockdown lifting hopefully you’ll be able to meet some new people,
Please stay strong and keep your chin up and put your best foot forward

[quote JustAnotherOldMan]**@RehearsalShoes, @CervixHaver
Really sorry to hear your feeling so lonely, don’t really have any words of encouragement, but with lockdown lifting hopefully you’ll be able to meet some new people,
Please stay strong and keep your chin up and put your best foot forward[/quote]
Thank you

I'm sorry to hear you're feeling despondent about your current situation, I can relate to it somewhat.

I've posted on similar threads recently,
so apologies for repeating myself if you've read some of my comments.

Other than going on online dating apps, and being open to any invitation that maybe offered to you, doing nothing about it will almost certainly result in no possibilities of meeting someone. It's pot luck most of the time!

I've done a slightly different thing: I'm 39, single, and am pregnant via IVF (fertility issues) using a sperm donor. I got tired of waiting for a suitable partner and relationship (I tried, I was even married in my early 30s), but a string of failed dates and two relationships subsequently left me feeling disillusioned. For me, children/having a family don't only exist within a relationship, although in a fantasy land, I would have liked that set up. If I hadn't have taken action about my fertility now, I think I'd most probably remain childless. I didn't want a man/relationship to dictate whether I end up having a family or not. It's not for everyone, however I was running out of time and it made me be very determined.

For women < 35 and with no fertility issues, IUI procedure, which is much cheaper and simpler, is usually recommended, should you be interested in pursuing solo parenting. A lot of helpful advice on the donor conception forum of MN and fertility friends website and of course your GP.

@CervixHaver

I'm sorry that you're feeling lonely and isolated. I think people don't quite understand what this situation does to you psychologically after a while. It's not quite solitary confinement, but it's certainly not good for one's mental health either long term.

Why don't you try something like meetup.com and meet people who have similar interests and see what develops from there. Most people want to be in a couple so I'm sure there must be other people wanting affection as much as you do. Good luck x