How to truely move on and be happy

[Justmeandme19]

I've had a dreadful few years! Multipul court hearings, about 15. Having to move and sell my house and live with family atm.
I've had years of trying to protect the children from their very disfunctional and abusive father and having to deal with his on going abuse towards me. He has tried very hard to disrupt my life and unfortunately has used the children to do this. This thank god has now ended. There is a no contact order through the family courts regarding the children and he is now unable to contact us.
I've tried very hard to move on, to get on top of my anxiety and over thinking but it's been very hard. Not helped by still not being in our own home. This will happen soon though.
I've changed my work hours so I now walk to work and have started keeping a diary but I still struggle massifly. I really don't want to remain on anti depressants all my life.
I know things take time, but I feel tired and frustrated with myself. I feel I should be happier and less anxious. What have people done to help themselves move forward?

I got really serious about loving myself in the now, broken and imperfect and screwed up as I was.

Imagine a wounded and defeated person, lying in bed in pain. You wouldn't dream of going up to them and yelling at them that they should be better, and why weren't they happy already? Yet that is what you are doing to yourself right now.

Teal Swan has recently been talking about 'what would someone who loved themselves do?' I don't rate her, but this is a description of what I did. I imagined myself as a little girl (with a photo on my mantelpiece to remind me), and I pledged to love and care for myself. I kept on acting in caring and gentle ways with myself, and began doing things for that little girl - things she would like to do.

That's real self-care: treating yourself with the same love and compassion you would give to your own children xx

Thank you.
You have some good ideas. I think the fact I'm not living in my own place just compels it as you carnt truely just do what you want to.
I'm really hoping with time and moving I will start to feel better.