Am I incapable of love

[Nicky2021]

Hey everyone
I have 3 children who i love with all my heart they are my world. It’s a powerful love,,,any parent knows what I mean.
But I’m talking about the love towards a partner.
I’ve recently left my husband (the children’s father) I was unhappy for a long time.
I see my friends who are happily married and love their husband or wife so much/can’t live without them type of thing. I’ve never felt like this about any of my partners, except my first serious boyfriend. I want to be with someone I’m “in love” with, who I can’t be wi the out etc but I’m scared that I’m not capable of this kind of love. I get put off by a man as soon as he does something wrong to me such as shouting at me unreasonably, lies, calls names etc and then I just cannot claw it back in and that’s it,,my feelings are stuck.
Sorry I just saw my friend post on her social media about her anniversary about her soul mate and she couldn’t ever be without him and it just made me think that’s what I want, but what if I’m incapable of that kind of love with a partner because I’ve never experienced it
Xx

Sorry- that was me trying to do a quote of earlier post. Doesn't look like I did it right😂

Me and the Mr took 2 1/2 years to update that we were married on SM then it was on the wrong date clearly, so evil FB has no idea when we were married and we get anniversary reminders on wrong date for wrong year.

Not sure I have ever posted a picture of us #soblessed. Ever. I see utter cock shit "so lucky" "my man best man ever" and know these people or get the gossip regardless, and their real lives are nothing like their media posts. Nothing like it.

As regards to me and the SM finally reluctantly married Mr, happy as larry, devoted as things stand. But gushy, can't live without you, nope, on both sides but from my point of view, that's a high bar to live up to, smothering even. It's not healthy.