This is probably been done before but i am beginning to realise i don't like my parents very much and if honest never have. It stems back from childhood but me and my sister never were able to discuss feelings or emotions and me in particular can remember being told 'your too sensitive', 'there are worse people off than you', 'get a grip'. I had lots of trouble with bullying at secondary school and i can remember my Dad telling me to get just 'get on with it' and deal with it. He used to work away from home a lot and only came home at weekends but i never really felt i could talk to him. My own Mum didn't even realise i was unhappy at school and never asked why. I had this conversation with her and i can remember her saying you should of told me. I have had lots of invalidation in my life and i am fucking sick and tired of never feeling i am never good enough and sick of feeling low in mood. I have had counselling three times and whilst its helped i don't know how to move on. I find it very hard to connect and trust people and always end up with emotionally unavailable people. How do i break this cycle as i don't want to spend the remainder of my 30s miserable. Has anyone else had similar experience?