Hi, I'll try and keep this brief. I've always had a distant relationship with my mother. I didn't tell her my worries from an early age. I think this is because she used to ignore me. She certainly changed the subject easily when I talked to her about difficult things as an adult ( depression, suicidal thoughts, redundancy, problems with the children etc). She had an affair when I was 14 and moved out, leaving me to care for my suicidal father (he's still alive thankfully). I no longer talk to her about serious issues and I try to keep things trivial around her hobbies. I have had lots of counselling over the years to try and help my deal with her. It has helped. I have let her have a relationship with my kids who love her. This was perhaps a mistake but I can't go back in time. At the moment, I struggle with her as I neither love or like her, nor want to spend time with her or her husband. They are always together, so I don't see her on her own. She's still causing me stress, all these years later. I can't go no contact, as i can't hurt my kids. What can I do? Im literally annoyed by everywhere says or does, and it really upsets my mood and saps my energy.