I posted recently under a different name as I was struggling to relax sexually with mew partner.
I was in a long marriage with a man who was a sex pest essentially .
His drive, desire and expectations remained the same as when we first met all through the years .
He groped me, slapped my bum, sulked if he didn't get sex, waited up until after a night out for me to come home to coerce me into sex, just an all
Round pest . Worse , he groped in front of the kids and they started copying him.
He wanted quickies during the day when kids were in next room and did not do affection unless there was a sexual element to it . I detached completely when I did sleep with him and never once orgasmed through piv.
He repulsed me. I wasn't physically attracted to him very soon after marriage , yet I stayed until he had an affair.
He believed that because I was not sexual tap that I didn't fancy him anymore . He was right .
So my dilemma is ... why do I feel guilty ? The only guilt I feel is that the children saw some inappropriate bum slapping and started to copy him.
Part of me feels that it was my fault that he had an affair as I was visibly flinching to his touch by the end of the marriage .
He ignored me when he was at home and not working , either on his phone or asleep.
He had no interest on family life or in our marriage . The only thing that interested him about me was sexual. Help me unpick please.
Thank you .