Came right out and said some awful truths to my mother on the phone this morning... We have a firey relationship (I think she's a type of Narcissist but not the worst kind)... She often puts me down, not often, regularly... She gets so nasty when thing's don't appear to be going her way in a conversation... I usually change subject, ask to speak to Dad and or then end the call quickly at that point.
This morning I let rip... Didn't let her get a word in, I've never ever been able to do this... And then said some awful home truths which I know will have upset her greatly. But she's often said things to me me that have hurt me and never apologised. I'm fighting the urge to call and apologise as it won't achieve anything but cement the pattern of being submissive and her having the control she desperately wants.
I live a long way away and I'm pregnant.