He used to hit the animals

[AlPacino]

Recently I’ve been having a lot of flashbacks and nightmares and I’m awaiting PTSD therapy.

But thoughts of my stepdad abusing our pets is really hard. He once kicked our kitten from one room to the other because it nicked a bit of meat off his plate. That happened a few times.

He also would abuse the dogs. Kicking them, and if one of them pooped in the house he would grab them by the head, shove their heads in it and smack them on the face really hard.

My fucking idiot mum thought it was funny.

I don’t know why but those memories are really bothering me.

I'm sorry I have no advice but Jesus Christ that's awful. No wonder it's bothering you.

So sorry this happened to you @AlPacino. Did he ever hit you? Even if he didn't the fact that he did all these cruel things to animals shows that he is abusive and you are clearly traumatised from witnessing this abuse.

I hope therapy goes well for you. Will you be receiving EMDR? Never had it myself but that is meant to help with the flashbacks and disturbing memories.

Yes @Ruminating2020 he repeatedly pushed my head underwater and also kicked me and threw me out of the house by my neck.

I don’t know if I’ll have Emdr but I’ve heard it’s good

what nasty man. And your mum was no better. Sorry you were brought up by these people OP.

Because its evil and you have empathy and morals.
I had CPTSD and diagnosed with BPD a few years ago which stems from it.
EMDR is a really good therapy but only if you have single trauma. I found intensive CBT worked wonders for me.
Good luck in your healing journey xx

How awful @AlPacino. I hope you are able to heal from the trauma of your abusive childhood.
All the best with your recovery.

I'm soooo sorry to hear that! People who abuse animals should get the same punishment as people that mistreat children.

I remember once seeing my father yank and pull our mini-collie down the stairs cause he was pissed off about something with my DM. I was horrified and even now 30 years later it is still with me. But then my father physically abused my mother and sometimes me, so it wasn't really surprising that he would do that to the dog.

That is terrible. I am so sorry.

People who abuse animals should have their children taken into care.

I'm so sorry AlPacino - what a terrible thing to experience. I hope your therapy helps

I'm sorry for you & the animals.

Are you NC with them both now? Do you have siblings?

My ex did this to my dog
When I was pregnant

He is an ex for a reason. That being one of them.
Abuse of animals is a massive red flag
Cruel is cruel

So sorry for what you’ve been through

Those poor animals. So sorry you and they had to endure that.
He was a psychopathic bastard.