I'm nearly two years down the line.
Two years ago my relationship with the guy I absolutely adore ended. It was well overdue ending and completely done. There had been violence at points although not for about 5 years before it ended. I couldn't really say if he ended it or I did; we had grown apart and I was finding his behaviour increasingly difficult.
But the truth is no matter how little our relationship was working the love was there on both of our parts right until the end.
But I am and have been in my heart utterly heartbroken every since. Sometimes it's ok. Sometimes I'm reasonably happy. But there is a thundering great big hole. It doesn't seem to get smaller it still hurts. I dont know if I just dont want to let that part of me go.
Might counselling help. I'm done being broke