Should I stay or should I go?

[Diabetes123]

I suffer from severe generalised anxiety disorder and major depression and my anxiety grabs on to thoughts that I should leave my husband (which I already did last year for 3 months and had a nervous breakdown).

I just cant seem to stop my thoughts from running away with me and it gives me terrible anxiety, like really really bad cant eat cant sleep etc.

Currently being treated by mental health team and I'm on medication and awaiting psychotherapy but really struggling. Dont really want to talk to my husband about it although he is aware that I have these thoughts which I feel awful about he must be absolutely sick of me.

Cant speak to my mental health workers as they are on holiday this week and its 5pm on a Monday evening and it would probably be the crisis team I would have to speak to which I dont want to do.

Please help!

Can you accept those thoughts are there but you are going to do nothing about it. So stop fighting the thought and just let it come . Try to step back from the thought and see it like an intruder but not you if that makes sense.
It seems your dh is a good man and there is no need to leave him so these thoughts are not based on reality..
Could you call the Samaritans or a help line so you do have someone to speak to.
Hopefully your meds will kick in soon and do their job.

When I am struggling with obsessive thoughts I play a game with myself. I say “I will think about that in ten minutes after I have, cooked the tea/washed the pots/had a shower/walked the dog etc” then distract myself with that task. If the thought is still there after I have done the task then I either allow myself five minutes to think about it or I repeat the “i will think about that after I have done x” step. This can go on all evening but it stops the thought becoming obsessive.

Thank you girls ❤️

I do really try to stop/manage the thoughts the best way I can but they cause me deep anxiety and then everything spirals 😩

My dh is absolutely amazing but I guess I feel guilty too because he probably doesn’t know if he’s coming or going and I’m making him unhappy too! I tell him all of the time that I love him deeply but that the anxiety just keeps getting the better of me 😓

I’m hoping that once I start my psychotherapy I can learn some coping techniques but she has a waiting list so god knows when it will start 😩 in the meantime I just try and distract myself I’ve got a lovely friend who has been through a similar I’ll was and we went to a walk last night and I had a good cry and a chat which really helped so I wasn’t too bad when I came back home.

I’m really tired this morning as my anxiety has woke me up early and couldn’t get back to sleep!

I’m off work today so just gonna rest 👍