Just existing

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Don't know why I am writing this. My husband left me 5 years ago, since then have dated but nothing has worked out been hurt so many times I have given up. The four guys I dated all in happy relationships, my husband in a happy relationship. I recently got a puppy for my kids they have been desperate and I thought it may help with my loneliness but this has made me feel worse the constant attention he needs and the sleepless nights I feel more trapped than I did before not being able to leave him at all. I am literally just trying to get through each day. I have been on anti depressants for years anyway. Don't know what I expect from this thread but sometimes it's helps to write 🥲

Sorry you’re struggling, OP. Just on the puppy: it’s stressful, like having a baby, but the baby stage passes quickly (a matter of weeks rather than years!) so hang on in there. When I had my puppy a friend said that at some point you start to notice that nothings changed for a while and then everything settles down, and that’s what’s happened with my dog who is now the easiest companion imaginable. You’ll get there

@justawoman thank you for responding. I hope it gets easier. I mean I take care of him he has everything he needs it's just the way I feel that I hate. I think about my life pre lockdown I went to work everyday mixed with other adults now it's just me & the dog when the kids are at school and the office has closed now so will be permanent at home another reason I got the dog. I just have this overwhelming feeling of being trapped in my own home, and see everyone else in happy relationships it's just so overwhelmingly at the moment x

I’m sorry, OP. I’m single too and this lockdown has been very hard on us, hasn’t it? Are you able to get out/take the dog for a walk with a friend or even (from tomorrow) more than one? As with the puppy stage this is temporary though it doesn’t reach feel to me like the end’s in sight either.

Once lockdown is over could you look for another job is being in an office is better for you? Also, might be worth having a chat with your GP. Sometimes antidepressants stop working so well after a while and it might be possible to try something different.

He needs to have his 12 week injections & then I can get walking with him which I hope will help. Thank you for responding to me I sometimes feel like a burden to my family. Once the dog is settled I think I will definitely try to look for another job x