I haven't posted on here for years 😆 a lots changed in my life. Im not really after advice as such, I just need to tell someone this because I wouldnt dare tell a soul in real life 😏
I've seen this man now and again over the years being pulled along by a bunch of big dogs. I always thought he was a dog walker. He always looked quite serious, bit of a loner, but there was something about him that always made me want to get to know him. He's not really what you'd call good looking but there was just something about him.
Anyway nearly a year ago I got a dog, and I take him onto a local field 3 or 4 days a week, and my mum does while Im at work. I've gotten to know the regulars on that field, all men in their 60's, their dogs know mine so it's like a play date for them.
Anyhow when I first started going there, this guy turned up one day, the dog walker. I'd always been curious about him and here was the perfect opportunity to find out about him! Turns out he owned all of those dogs (one since died, one was his sons), is happily married, very nice and friendly and lives in a lovely house around the corner from me. I remember coming away thinking about how I'd enjoyed chatting to him.
Was always pleased to see him after that. But things changed in my mind when my mum was talking about who she'd talked to one day on the field while I was at work. This guy was one of them - she said he knew my dog, and when she told him I was her daughter he apparently replied, "oh yes - she is a very nice person" 
I was really happy that he thought that about me, because I think that about him - but why on earth do I keep on thinking about him 😆
I never hang around waiting for him to turn up. Never make myself look more presentable than usual (mostly make-up free and scruffy coat/wellies - same as him!!), I just like him and it's nice to see him. Is this even a crush? I don't know what it is. I'm almost 40,hes mid sixties. He is funny and doesn't come across as "old" if you know what I mean.