My parter and I of 13 years split up last year for 3 months. We split because i was fed up of feeling like a single mum. We barely communicated. So i moved out. In those 3 months he met and got someone else pregnant, he acted like a single man during those months, taking his new gf on trips, drinking, partying. All while only seeing his children bare minimum. He split from gf and we rekindled our relationship. Mainly because my heart was broke and i so desperately wanted it fixed. It has to a certain extent. I act like were ok but im sad. He's all ive ever know. My first and only proper relationship. Im angry he lived this life without giving me and my children a second thought. He got to experience being with someone else, to see if someone can make him happier than me. Am i a bad person to also want to see if someone else can make me happier. Its not about sex, its not you slept with someone else so i want to. What if theres someone out there who is willing to make more time for me, someone who can make me happy again. I love him but i hate him. Im sad and don't feel like he's doing much to try and change it.