Hi, sorry not sure if this is appropriate here. Has anyone who has experienced childhood abuse (emotional, physical) had that affect their personality? I am noticing it more and more in the way that I relate to my husband in particular and I don't know how to fix it. When I am angry I fantasise about hurting him, badly (I don't do this). It is obviously there though, inside me.
I don't cope with anger or frustration well, but haven't found the anger management resources I have found to be particularly helpful. Can anyone recommend anything? Can you even fix yourself?
I cannot afford private therapy. Previous help on the NHS has not been particularly helpful- 8 sessions of Cbt relating to anxiety just doesn't really scratch the surface.