Keep being reminded is driving me mad

[Tryingtobehappytomorrow123]

I am aware that this may seem like a strange issue but here goes, first time poster btw. I struggled with a very toxic relationship with my mum for many years. I should have cut the relationship many many years ago, as she has many narcissistic traits, and I was constantly stressed out with her in my life. It came to a head a couple of years ago, I broke contact with her, and I feel nothing but relief to be honest. Here’s the issue. I’m basically her double. Every time I look in the mirror or see my reflection it brings it all back up, and it’s the only time the issues resurface. I’ve taken the mirrors down in the house but this is proving difficult when I am out and about, which I know isn’t often at the moment. I know this may not seem like much but my stomach churns, you wouldn’t believe how stressed I feel. I can’t afford to be spending £50 an hour or so to talk to someone about this, I just wondered if anyone had any ideas, I know this is very niche! Thanks anyway x

I could have written this. I am the image of my mum and we had a very very poor relationship, despite my best efforts. She died two years ago. For the first year I could not bare to look in the mirror. The only way I have moved forward from it was psychotherapy..... It honestly saved me x

Thank you for replying to me. It’s such a rare thing, or seems to be, that friends don’t understand what it’s like. That’s what I might have to do. I might see if I can claim on my employers health insurance or something. Sad thing is, I always catch sight of myself when I look moody or whatever, it then reminds me of when I was younger and she was so difficult to live with. Thanks again x