When I was 12 I was abused by my step father. Fast forward 25 years and I have 6 children and been with my partner for 18 years. 3 years ago I went to the police about what happened to me when I was younger and the person in question is now in prison. Since the court case I have only been able to have sex with my partner a handful of times as my mental health has suffered bad, but I don’t think my partner is listening to me. 3 times I have just let him have sex to keep the peace and on countless occasions he just gropes me while I’m sleeping, has even taken the odd picture of me. Thing is, I’m on some heavy meds to help me (I have complex ptsd, depression) that I sleep through when he starts and wake up while he’s touching me. Last night I woke up to him standing over the bed and he was lifting my underwear away when he saw me look at him, he had a go at me saying I’m taking too much of the bed !!!! It frightens me but feel it’s my fault as I’m not giving him enough sex. I don’t know what to believe any more.