I'm needing help, I dont work ,have serious allergies, asthma, ive had anaphylaxis but not died , so cannot be near chemicals, cigarette smoke, im on 4 5 antihistamines a day, ive asked my gp for proper meds but refused referral to allergy clinic, to this limit s what work I can do, I have a support worker helping me look for work , I have alot of leaning difficulties, I take ages to learn but I'm determined to find work , im trying to get ducks in a row over leaving ,relationship history, he's completely intolerant to me , even if im happy, which I try to be, he's said he's not been happy for years but keeping trying to safe the marriage, he's sarcastic, belittling insensitive to my health issues even gets annoyed if im happy chatting saying ,he dosent like wafflers, or im talking too much, he told me to f off over me making a mistake over takeaway, I rarely ask for his help, even if we get on he still says he dosrnt enjoy conversations, ive bent over backs to be caring supportive loving wife, its never enough he still gets annoyed, so I've been trying to find places to live or suggest he moves out if he's sick of me, he snarled at me when I offered to do a nice thing, I get eye rolls over severe allergies, sometimes, he says he loves me but then says there's no feelings for me, he shuts me down from taking, I know this isn't healthy, I know he's been through alot he blames this, he's all nice to others not me, I have a councelor and told my gp, my mum won't let me move in ,he's resented me for being ill, im trying to find out what I can do for housing the council won't help me as im not homeless, he's suggested he moves out, but then changes his mind, his mum and sister have turned against me , I think he spoke to them, he blames me, so I try harder but can see no way of saving this marriage he can give me the odd hug, but obviously its not enough, im not sure I can pay rent, with universal credit as landlord didn't want benefits, he's down to pay the rent ,I have struggled to find work, o posted before sorry I feel so trapped traumatised by his mean comments, if I stand up for myself he says that I'm back chatting or hates the way I talk despite trying to say it, its impossible I cant bare this, nothing I do is good enough, he got annoyed over me saying im using a different tray for cooking ,falling over gasping for breath opening windows ,if im inpain he's said your not dying or over anaphylaxis your not dying calling me a f ing idiot for being allergic to something, as it had strong chemicals so I try not to say stuff, he kept winding me up or me being in pain severe eye pain, he got annoyed over me mentioning severe abscess, asthma, I said make plans after lockdown as he said he would decide then, he bought me flowers card for valentines then he managed to convince me it would work etc, then said he didn't mean the card, then when I questioned it tried to end our marriage but changed his mind, should I just say move to his mums? Despite lockdown he's admitted he's not happy i say not to mock be sarcastic condescending remarks but he still dose it, he shuts not he's said he dosent care when I suffered severely breathless, the other reason is are area is not nice very rough, I know there's no hope really he dosent care and my feelings says to work on it then gets annoyed with me for trying to mention anything, blames me for his behaviour, conversation is impossible then ,so I try to keep my distance, my friend refused to put me up I dont have anyone else, I dont feel appreciated, I felt trapped as of lockdown. I'm trying to avoid conflict and avoid him but it dosent matter something else annoys him, please help im so isolated. Sorry for long post .