Can someone please help me give my head a wobble. I'm feeling so low and fed up.
Back in August I met someone online. We started messaging via website all the time and after a week swapped numbers, then came the first phone call. Then after that he was phoning all the time. I quickly realised his actions were lovebombing. I knew they were but I got so caught up in it, enjoyed the attention and I didn't put a stop to it.
We met a few weeks later, then texts calls would continue. Because of lockdown and his job we haven't seen each other again but not a day has passed where we haven't messaged. Phone calls are very few now.
During our "relationship" he has shown narcissist behaviour. He has blown up at me, been controling, shown no empathy and I believe I developed a kind of trauma bond. He knows my full name and address. I know I was stupid giving that to him, he sent me gifts in the post. But typically narc gifts nothing that would benefit me.
So a few days ago he told me he had posted something. Something that would have meant a lot. I've since found out he hasn't so that upset me, I know he won't. Today I spoke about the census. He said I don't like folk Knowing where I am. I said well I don't either so your safe from me. Then he started being stupid saying I'm at home. I said yes but I don't know where that is. He replied Barnsley.
Of course I know that much. Then when I said well I know that he just said I know.
So that to me shows that he obviously doesn't want to share with me. I have been told to block but honestly I didn't want to see what he really was, I couldn't face the fact I've been so stupid and I've been scared. I know narcs don't take kindly to not getting the last word.