I am learning to let go of my past relationship of almost eight years, and day by day I am getting stronger, and not doing triggering things like looking at pictures/social media etc. In myself I am genuinely happy, and I am actually okay being by myself, but I just keep getting drawn to my ex. When I first met him, when I was 14/15, I just knew that there was something about him, and I knew he would be in my life forever and this was literally from the first day we met, two years later we did actually start our relationship, which totally happened naturally, as we stopped talking for a year as he moved away, and then we got married only recently. Although I am letting him go, I just feel as if there is a weird connection, like the one I got when I met him, and I just can not seem to let that go? I'd understand that it may be a connection due to us being in a relationship, but I had this connection with him from day one, and its really hard to explain, like we are total opposites but also SO similar as well, like we were the best of friends before we actually got together, and were best friends throughout. We both started being unhappy for the last few months, but we both had a lot going on (moving house 4 times in less then a year) and obviously I dont think covid helped, and we didnt have our own space because we lived with family, after living just us two for 5 years. I did want to tell him I wanted space late last year but I was scared because he wouldnt of had anywhere to go and I felt bad. Now I have had a few months apart from him, I am realizing just how much I actually love him, and he said that he will love me forever, but he said I need to let him go and move on. I just hope that we have to truly fall apart to fall back together, but at the moment I do not think he wants this, but he loves me so its all a bit confusing.