To still be angry about this

[Northernsoulgirl45]

So dh wfh fill time. I do about 40 hours per month out of home concentrated over a two week period. It is poorly paid tbf and DH does cover all bills etc.
3 kids 2 SEN to home educate. One needs constant support but still produces very little.
So I am at the end of my rope with homeschooling. I do virtually everything else around the house too as dh has a chronic health condition.
Dh booked 2 days off work. I expressed surprise when he booked it for Half Term when I wasn't working. His excuse being I can help dd catch up. This changed to I will help her if she will let me to finally I will do fuck all.
Cue this week when my work is full on and the homeschooling isn't happening. I did about half at the weekend of contract A but now struggling to finish rest.
So fucking angry right now. It indicates to be how low a priority me and the kids are and I am not sure I can recover from this..
Thoughts pkease

Didn't want to read and run but am a bit confused.
Not sure if you work outside of school hours or during? If he's working f/t from home, what happens to the kids?
What does 'at the end of contract A' mean?
Why was having 2 days off when you were at home a problem?

Sorry, can tell you're angry/upset but a bit more detail would help.

OK so I have two jobs. One is about 25 hours. One is about 15 hours per month. I have to work between 9 and 6 but can pick my own hours as self employed.
This week has been extra tough as both jobs arrived this week. I am having to work all weekend but still do all the cooking, cleaning etc. This week I am having to homeschool and fit in small amounts of work around this. I sn resentful because if he hadn't booked 2 days holiday when U had no work or homeschool he could have had even one day this week which would mean I could concentrate on my with and he could actually do some homeschooling. Trying to homeschool a child on ADHD pathway and another ASD child is a real strain and I feel like everything falls to me.
Obviously as out of home have a commute on top.
I just feel like he can do his job without any stress and refuses to be flexible in any way. However Ijmgace to juggle everything without support.

Thanks @NotAgainNoMore

Sorry concentrate on my work

I have to juggle everything without support.

Right, I understand now. Yep, he's leaving you to juggle everything basically. I have only 1DC with ASD, but I do understand the 'extra' mental load you have.
Tbh, I separated from my DH due to these kind of issues. He did his job, spent his leisure time how he wanted, avoided any parenting, no help whatsoever.

Is this a 'lockdown' issue do you think and things will get better when we are back to normal? Will he be 'out' at work when lockdown ends?

I think it is probably a long term issue but Lockdown has escalated things. Normally I would do maybe half my work during the week whilst youngest is at school and have some time to recharge before full on evenings Whereas now there is no respite.
He moaned about doing a long 10 hour day last whilst sat on the chair waiting for me to cook his fucking dinner.
He had 4 concurrent days off during half term including weekends. 2 hours were spent with us both applying for an EHCP and he probably spent maybe another hour doing anything of any value in 4 days.

Suspect he will eventually return to work.

He's not pulling his weight. Does he not do anything with the kids or help around the house in the evenings? Have you talked to him about it and if so, what is his reaction? Or do you think lockdown has shown his true colors and you've had enough?

Stop invalidating your feelings. You don't need anybody's permission or validation to be angry. If you're angry, you're angry. Be angry! It's good for you to feel anger when your boundaries are crossed. Its the right and appropriate emotional response.

Obviously you have to deal with your anger appropriately. Work out exactly what you feel is right/how you feel this should resolve. Tell him calmly, and then tell him what the consequences will be. If he keeps crossing your boundaries, rethink the relationship altogether.

It's pure disrespect.