I love him but

[bloodywhitecat]

Chemo and steroids can make him a real arse to live with at the moment. I know it's not him, the real him is kind and caring and considerate. I know he tries hard to not be an arse. I know he's scared (God knows, so am I) but bloody hell he is hard work sometimes. The worst bit is chemo is just buying time, it is not a cure. He can't be cured.

Just hang in there

Just post here to vent x

Big hugs. Just figuring out how to word this. I will dive in.

Please have the chats with him about wills, God forbid funeral wishes, passwords. These are all for just in case. We didn't and my partner died of a brain tumor. Neither of us thought he would die.

I hope his health improves soon and he returns to his normal self xx

Thank you all, I hesitated posting this because I didn't want it to come across badly but I am glad I did.

We have had those chats @butterfly990, I am so sorry to hear you lost your partner. Shortly after we were told he had six months we had the chats, I now have a sparkly note book with all the details I will need at some point in.

Love the sparkly notebook x

I am a member of WAY, widowed and Young. I have found the support to be amazing. Thet have a huge Facebook presence and its like a big family. I hope you won't ever need to join us but you abd your family will be welcomed x

@bloodywhitecat

Chemo and steroids can make him a real arse to live with at the moment. I know it's not him, the real him is kind and caring and considerate. I know he tries hard to not be an arse. I know he's scared (God knows, so am I) but bloody hell he is hard work sometimes. The worst bit is chemo is just buying time, it is not a cure. He can't be cured.

Nothing to say apart from I'm so sorry this is so shit and so unfair.

He’s angry at life, for doing this to him...... And to you.

He’s angry that this weighing on you, changing you and bringing you down through no fault of your own, or his essentially.

He’s angry, hurt, sad and scared that he won’t be able to fulfil his hopes and dreams with you.

As the carer, one ( To be ) left behind, your anger, hurt, sadness, stress is the equal of his, maybe more so.

Bless you both.

What a horrible time for you both.

He is angry and rightfully so, not at me he is angry at the cancer. We don't talk about it much, we haven't been offered any form of counselling and we are finding it difficult to get support. COVID makes it worse because no-one's life is normal at the moment so we can't even rely on friends and family for physical support.

Here I am. Up at 3am (almost), watching crap TV and willing the days not to end so we can have more time together.

OP - have you read "Late Fragments - Everything I Want to Tell You About this Magnificent Life" by Kate Gross?

books.google.com/books/about/Late_Fragments_Everything_I_Want_to_Tell.html?id=FFw5BAAAQBAJ

I'm sorry. Cancer is an evil bastard, and so are the drugs they use.

Have you had any contact with Marie Curie or Macmillan? Has he?