Hello
Just thought I'd give an update for those who wished me well and asked to know how everything goes.
My debt is now paid (by DH), income and expenditure is set up on excel for every month for the rest of 2021 ready to be added to each month.
No more nastiness from DH (as of yet), seems to be more caring, cooked me dinner at the weekend, helped out with cleaning on Sunday due to not working, suggested we start a new series together in the evenings on the sofa instead of spending it apart because of the bad atmosphere.
I am honestly shocked at his turnaround but I'm still wary. We have agreed who pays what based on earnings which means I can put £100 into a joint savings account each month towards any emergency unexpected costs or holiday fund and still have left over to treat myself to new clothes or new make up for example (not that I will do this every month, I don't need to, it just means that I feel less dehumanised).
DH has again acknowledged his bad behaviour towards me, he opened up about his grief and said he would like to make things right between us so we've contacted a marriage counsellor.
No TTC, coil is still being fitted in a couple of weeks but we will attend the specialist appointment for recurrent miscarriages as planned so we know where we stand for the future.
I can honestly say I have never felt better, a weight has been lifted off of me and I feel like I can sleep, breathe, do things without a ton on my shoulders for the first time in a very long time.
Sending lots of love to you all that showed me kindness, advice and a hand hold when I needed it most x