Been with my partner over 4 years. Left him a couple of times (his cheating) but forgiven and got back together to give him the last chance. We are meant to be planning living together and marriage at some point.
Instead, I have lost my feelings for him. Things he does starting to annoy me greatly. Like his smoking which I accepted in the past because I loved him, but the cigarette stink just puts me off completely nowadays.
Or he's got TV always, always on, all day. When he is at mine, he spends 90% watching TV. I hate it! I watch an occasional film or programme but I think he is lazy (though he is at my home so maybe not that much to do for him?) and this puts me off too.
Or, now he took to stay at mine almost always, because I live nearer his work than he does. He doesn't do anything wrong, but just feels on top of each other. He contributes when I ask, but it is not consistent and I don't like asking. How do I even ask him to go home?
He is good with my kids (more in chatting than anything else), helps out occasionally, very forgiving, affectionate and always lots of compliments. He's helped out in my hard moments and I appreciate him for that.
But it feels like my feelings are gone. Not sure if what I have left is enough to build life on. I used to want to live with him. Not anymore. Once feelings are gone, is that it...? I am in my mid 40s and don't really believe in fairytale anymore but even I am starting to think, this is not going to work.