I know I'll probably get flamed for this as these kind of threads don't tend to go well.
Still, I have no one to talk to about this in real life so I'm putting it here. Apologies, it'll probably be long.
Basically the story is, I moved from London to a small country town last year and have a 7 month old baby boy. Obviously with lock down there's nothing to do and I have no family around. So all there is is the daily walk around my (small) area.
The issue I'm having is there's this neighbour that I sort of got to know through chatting last year who I'd bump into every now and then. From the very beginning I thought I felt some sort of chemistry but obviously just brushed it off. We're both married and he has a 5 month old baby boy. My husband would be friendly with him too although we don't really know his wife at all, we just seem to bump into him on his own. Should also mention that he and I have a couple of things in common which I think contribute to us feeling a bit friendly.
Anyway, long story short is I'm bumping into him a lot now on the daily walks (he can't work because of lockdown). We had a really nice, fairly long chat the other day. I asked after his wife and we mainly spoke about the babies but I got that vibe again. I know it sounds cringey. I think part of the problem is that we're both in that baby rut that's amplified by lockdown where we're not seeing anyone so bumping into each other has just become a pleasant part of the day/week. I will admit to finding him attractive. Have done since the start. I don't want to sound big headed at all but I do suspect he might feel the same.
So, really the point of this thread and what has me all in a tizz, is yesterday, on the walk I saw him coming down the road. It's a very narrow path and there's a gap where you would stop in to let someone pass especially these days with social distancing (he did this the last day and this is where we chatted) but I sort of felt really awkward and uncomfortable when I saw him so I didn't pull in as such and just kept going. I was very friendly as we passed, said hi to him and made some friendly passing comment, but he had to practically swerve onto the road to go around with the pram and I'm afraid now that I came across as rude or something for 1. Not moving in and 2. Looking like I didn't want to stop and chat. I literally cringed at myself afterwards and I'm convinced he thinks I fancy him now or that I'm weird or something.
PLEASE tell me that I'm over thinking this massively and that he didn't give all of this a second thought. Or not, if you think so and I'll just have to deal with it. I'm not usually so paranoid and awkward but I think I just went into protective mode and made an attempt to not get too friendly or something. I don't know. Just worried that I came across rude considering our very friendly chat the other day.
I'm already going to avoid that route for a few days even though the walking paths are limited with the pram. I'm pretty sure the advice will also be to just forget about him/hopefully avoid seeing him for a while and these feelings will pass...
Ugh I feel like such a twat.