I ended a relationship about a month ago, not super long term but long enough that I was in love with him and we had discussed a long term future. 6 months ago it started to go awry, he was not giving me even nearly the amount of attention, intimacy, communication or commitment that I need from a relationship. Would often go long periods without contacting me, our sex life dwindled and so on. I lost my confidence hugely and my self esteem took a real hit. I later discovered that he was cheating on me the whole time which is obviously why things had started failing.
I'm trying to deal with things the best way that I can and have made some real positive steps. I've stopped drinking. I've started working out at home and am carefully watching my diet. I've started meditating and doing self help exercises to try and break some negative patterns that will hopefully lead me to someone better and less destructive for me in the future.
But I'm so lonely. It's been a long time, even while we were together, that I've felt desired, attractive and sexy. I want connection and intimacy with someone again.
Obviously nothing will happen immediately until lockdown resolves but is it too soon to be looking elsewhere? I'm not looking for another relationship yet but I really want someone to talk to and to have some fun with while I work on myself. I don't have many friends and no family so not many other outlets in RL.