He left me last year after 9yrs together. Far from perfect relationship admittedly and I stayed through his many mistakes in hinds sight I should have left. I asked if he still wanted me he was being cold towards me I think I was really looking for reassurance it didn't go well and he broke up with me. I thought we would work it out we were still sleeping together etc but turns out he has been talking to/seeing someone else. I messaged her and told her we were sleeping together it was extremely wrong and stupid but I was so angry. He now hates me never wants to speak to me again. We only have one son so will be hard to have NC but I am so disappointed with myself that I let this get to me so bad and now he truly hates me completely.
I think I just need someone to tell me I was wrong and what's done is done now I am angry with myself and beating myself up. I feel like a crazy woman, like he's made me crazy. Am I that crazy ex? There's no excuse for what I done at all. I'm so disappointed with myself I just want to curl up in a ball and die...