Hi I've never posted before so please be kind if possible as my mood is just thread bare.
I'm 37 and have 2dc ,6mths and 3. My husband and I are together six years. married 3. I am financially secure and we live in my house. He is also financially secure and helps me with house bills etc. We both work ft.
My husband is a recovering alcoholic. Sober 13 years. Can be extremely selfish and prone to moodiness if he is not working or earning money. He is a great daddy and I commend him all the time . He never compliments me or shows me much affection. He doesn't really know how I think but he is a good man.
Anyhow the issue is He snores very badly and we argue A LOT over this. We sleep separate room as he was wakening the baby snoring. Added to this he is a huge conspiracy theorist and believes paedophiles are taking over the world and covid is a ruse. He's extremely anti vaccine and won't allow any of us to get the vacicne. His family are fully of the same view as him.
I've become so disillusioned and confused lately. My sister has recently told me I've become a shadow of my former self. My brother has told me he says I'm no craic anymore.
I should add I work incredibly hard and I often feel like a single mother. I look after the children seven days a week. My husband works 6am -7pm and he would work on a Sunday if he could. He doesn't know the children's routine. I feed bath clothes them etc. I often feel invisible. But I adore the children and don't mind .
We don't socialise ever (pre covid) because he won't go out socially. He doesn't like any where there is drink involved. I attend alanon to help me understand the alcoholic but truth be told I'm finding my life incredibly hard work. Lonely. And if we ever row , which we do every few weeks, he always isolates me and stops speaking to me for days. Absolutely never says sorry.
I apologize for long post.
Any advice ? Am I being unreasonable looking for more for my life.