DH used a website that broke the trust in the relationship. The website was untoward but was not cheating in itself to me, but close (nothing like IE or Fab - that’s cheating IMO).
After reading it all and “using” the website to understand it, I decided I could, with lots of progress, move past it.
I have OCD and I have become fixated on this sort of thing. I was doing so well then had a weird inkling and tried to see if DH had an account again by using his email - he did. However it hasn’t been used (you can tell easily - can’t be deleted). I know the account was created since the last time. Before he used a fake name and email, so why use the email I also use to set up an account? Basically the logic isn’t there.
This is my dilemma, in my checking, it’s possible I created the account. The logic is semi there... I thought if he was going to do it again on that email then he’d be in for a surprise especially as I’d know (as it’s my account?)
But I don’t remember - I have a slight feeling I did it, but can’t be sure.
My friends think I did do it as it sounds like me.
I’m in mental torture. If he went back on it the trust is completely gone and we’d have to end but I don’t want to. If I did it, I am driving myself mad.
Help?