Hi all,
I have been with my partner 2 years in February, it has not been great at all.
It did start off as an amazing relationship but later on down the lane he has changed.
He has recently started to strangle me, call me names, tell me im fat and ugly.
He held a knife to my throat a few days ago and threatened to slice my throat and tried throwing me down the stairs.
My dad has terminal cancet, i found out only a few months ago and he tells me he hopes me and my dad die and if i “carry on” with whatever it is i am doing or go to the police, i am going to end up in a body bag before him.
I recently got sent screenshots by a woman, it turns out last year he was telling her he wanted to sleep with her, telling her he always liked her, she had a sexy body and wishes he was beside her.
I keep telling him to leave my house but he refuses and said he is not going anywhere.
He is using the excuse that he has been put on antidepressants today.
I am scared i am going to end up dead soon, he constantly keeps talking sexual to me since he done it thinking it will make me forgive him.
I cant even tell him i love him anymore as i do not, not in the slightest, not one part of me, everytime he touches me, i get a horrible sensation that i can not explain.
He even tells me i have no choice but to give him sex.
Why wont he leave? Ive had enough, i am currently having to wear loads of make up to cover a black eye i have from him, he threw a bag at my face and slapped me round the face, he keeps saying the black eye is from the bag and he did not mean for it to hit my face.
I honestly do not feel the need to even live anymore, to live my life forced to be with someone i am extremely unhappy with and someone i feel nothing but hatred for.
I dont know why i am posting this, i am so sorry but i feel so alone
He even brings up the fact that i was sexually abused as a child in arguments all the time.
How did anyone else get out of similar situations?