Hello, to make a long story kind of short-ish.
I left my ex partner September 2018 after he raped me and pushed me down because I was standing in the door way preventing him to going to hang out with his mate who I found out he did cocaine and talked about escorts with (found out through his Facebook messages)
I don't want a lecture, I know he's a messed up guy, I hate him for the trauma he's caused me and my kids, were no longer together, that's just one incident that's happened of many, maybe 4 violent incidents in a 8 year time with loads of sexual abuse as well.
Well here we go, I was living at my mums house which is overcrowded, (my 6 year old and my 1 year old having to share a room and bed with me) been to council more than once and the advised me to try private renting because of waiting list, but it's been so hard as I can't afford 6 months rent up front and I have to pay for transport to get my son to school which comes to 100 pounds a week!!
I've always suffered with health anxiety, worrying of myself getting sick and my kids not having a mjm to care for them or one of them getting sick. Since the Covid pandemic started, it has gotten way worse, not making anythjng easier that my mum works for the NHS at the hospital on a covid ward. This heightened my anxiety tremendously, my brothers kept leaving the house during lockdown seeing friends etc, got sick, refused to wear a mask when leaving his room, putting me and my kids health at risk, it caused loads of arguments, my 6 year old feeling the tension, because of the overcrowdedness there as tensions there anyways, they'd throw my kids clothes and toys in the bin if they were in their way, just plain nasty at times and it all became very unbearable especially when my 6 year old used to cry and say he didn't want to be there anymore.
I was desperate and reached out to my ex who was living with his mum and asked him if he can get my a small flat 1 bedroom or help me with a guarantor because I can't take being there any longer, he ended up getting a 2 bedroom flat and moved in!! I was very desperate and wanted to see my son happy and I wanted control over my fears and the situation at my mother's house.
The abuse has started up again, not physical abuse but sexual abuse, intimidation and feeling like I "owe" him for helping me out. I absolutely hate it here, he's begging me to sleep with him, asking me will I call the police if he raped me, very short tempered with the kids, they are afraid of him, going back to mums where I was facing more abuse isn't an option
I want to leave, ASAP. I need my own space. I don't have money, I depend on him loads.
I just want to make my kids and myself happy and out of this nightmare.
Can the council help me?
There's so much more to this situation but I don't want anyone to get bored and stop reading and I don't get the advice I need. Thank you all