Feel so stupid writing this but need to get it off my chest as have no one to confide in in rl.
So I've been married twice, first time I was very young had 2 children with him then found out he'd been cheating (numerous times) eventually I left him as I couldn't get past it.
Second marriage (still married) I was slightly older , early 30's, he knew what had happened in my previous marriage and how much it had hurt me, after a few years of being together we married and have since had 2 more children. 3 years ago I lost my brother it was very unexpected and really hit me hard. I discovered about 9 months ago that my husband has been on dating sites, hook up sites etc after he had left his phone unlocked charging. After a bit of digging I discovered that this had been going on for over a few years. I was/am devastated I confronted him he made all the promises he wont do it again and felt lonely after I had lost my brother. I just cant get over it, the fact that I was going through the hardest thing I ever had to deal with while he was sending dirty messages and pictures to other women adding to the fact he knew how much my ex had broke me I am beyond gutten, self esteem at rock bottom . sorry ranting just needed to get it off my chest