Married 20 years with 2 teenage children. DH not worked for 10 years - although he of course had kids some weekends and did school runs sometimes he was not sahd - I did more than him. Lockdown has made me see my future withago kids at home - it is not what I want. I can't bare many of the ways he wants things done. He has suffered with mental health issues tor years. About 18 months ago I should have left he was horrible - picking all the time, telling me I was a turn off because I was overweight - I am a 12-14 - and amongst other things calling me a fing acuntil for no reason. In the summer it came and io head and he promised me he would get a job and generally step up. He has applied for one job since then and only wants to work1 - 2 days a week . He I'd doing a lot if cooking how but not doing much else . He does adore me - why wouldn't he he has the life of riley. Every day lilltle things annoy me more and I just can't see a future where we want the same things ( as we really dont). We don't really argue- i just feel dead inside.