Just about keeping it together

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DH is in hospital, I took him yesterday evening to a&e and they kept him in.
I am so stressed and worried, I have been crying all night.
We have a toddler and I just about pulled myself together in order to feed him, only he refuses to eat anything this morning. I broke down in tears.
DH is in pain and said texting is a struggle so I try not to bombard him with texts.
I am worried because from the bit of info I have managed to get from him they don't seem 100% sure what's the problem. He has had some blood tests and scans and now off to have another test, also started antibiotics.

I am going from 'they are just being thorough and it's gonna be something simple and I am being a drama queen' to 'oh my god, what if it's something complicated and potentially deadly'.

On top of that, he texted saying that they told him he has type 2 diabetes (initial blood tests showed that), so now I am stressing that this will be complicating matters. We didn't know so I expect sugar levels are all over the place.

Just looking for a handhold

I even prayed last night, it's been so long since I last did.

I know that it’s easy for me to say, but you really need to pull yourself together for the sake of your child. He will be picking up on your anxiety.
You need happy mum and smiley faces while he is awake, you can crumble when he is asleep 💐

Here's my hand, and another prayer for you. x

@FippertyGibbett telling someone to pull themselves together is really unhelpful. You clearly have no idea about how anxiety manifests itself.

Deep breath, you can do this. You just need to survive today, toddler plonked in front of tv, put the kettle on and take ten minutes for yourself. He’s in the best possible place and they will figure out what’s going on. Sending a hug and handhold.

Thank you to all those who have taken the time to post.
Right now, I have committed the ultimate mumsnet sin and given him an old smartphone with kids mode on. He is watching YouTube kids. I am gonna try and tidy up.

DH texted saying that ultrasound(the latest test) looked fine, and as for his sugar levels they aren't that high but still in the diabetic range. Still keeping him in to monitor as still in pain. When I expressed worry told him I am might have been crying my eyes out he told me he isn't going to die and it's just an uncertain ordeal.
Well, when all this is over I will be welcoming all the berating for overreacting and being a drama queen as long as he is fine.

[quote Dramallama82]@FippertyGibbett telling someone to pull themselves together is really unhelpful. You clearly have no idea about how anxiety manifests itself.[/quote]
I have been in exactly this position and had 3 children to deal with, the older two had an inkling of what was happening
I put on a smiley face and carried on while they were awake.
Therefore I shall ignore your post, just as you are free to ignore mine.

I think with covid we are all dealing with an underlying anxiety in our lives, meaning that things we can cope with ordinarily, seem too much right now.

Be kind to yourself your son will be fine watching tv and give yourself some space to regain your perspective and composure. Your DH is being looked after by our superb nhs.

Have you got a friend you can confide in real life? Make sure you eat something too

Thank you @Lozzerbmc
I have spoken to a friend and I felt a bit better.

They are keeping him in hospital tonight as well.
It just feels so surreal.