Left STBEXH in November for a number of reasons (some might remember the two threads I had going on) and feel good for my choice. I've moved out and into rented with my two beautiful children and settling in okay. He's having regular contact and paying CMS so I'm glad the kids haven't come out of this too badly. However, he keeps professing his undying love for me, apologising, begging, telling me how depressed he is and life is only worth living on the days he sees the children, I'm his best friend and I've just gone, we could've made it work etc etc - I'm talking essays every few days. I'm not falling for it, and I've never doubted my decision to leave, but I can't pretend that it's not effecting me to read these things? I have to open his emails - because that's our means of communication about the children. I try to archive any straight away that I can tell aren't about the children. But I'm human, and sometimes I read them and it makes my heart hurt, like physically hurt. I don't know how to stop myself from feeling so responsible for his feelings and questioning myself as to if I did try hard enough. Sorry it's long! Anyone else got a sad ex that's playing their heartstrings?