I have been with partner for many years. She has threatened to leave me on so many occassions, but i have stayed faithful throughout. She has a history of depression which got worse after our first. She thinks i don't love her and we started counselling in Feb this year. Due to covid this never got passed the first session. We have had a turbulent life together, first she got fired for retaliation so i left my family and moved to London. I grabbed any job i could and got made redundant twice in close succession. Then we had issues with house rentals. She suffered from home sickness even going back to decide whether she would go back permanently but she came back said all that was out of her system and we eneded up having a child. We had a difficult first 6 months and she suffered further from depression. No one new and she didn't want to admit it to herself or anyone else. Things improved from time to time but the depression remained to the point she even threatened to kill herself going upstairs with a knife and our child was there at the time. I reached out to her family and friends a number of times for help. We agreed to relocate closer to my family for support but now she tries to allienate me from my mother and blames me for us moving back. We bought a house but only after she said i was being abussive wanting to back out because she threatened to leave me so many times before the purchase was complete. She agreed to keep the property as an Investment even if we didn't resolve issues but now less than 3 yrs into the 5 yrs she is threatening to leave and try to sell up. I feel as a man i have nowhere to turn. I get the blame for everything, the latest being i agreed to learn to drive in February but obviously haven't been able to because of covid. I want to resume counselling but i don't think she will. I am scared how this could impact our child to as she is struggling due to covid and missing family and friends. I am lost.