It's been a strange year to say the least.. But as we approach a new year.. Today I'm feeling reflective and wanted to share with those who may be feeling a little down.
This time last year. I was in an extremely violent and emotionally/psychologically abusive relationship.. I saw no way out and often thought this was my life and this would be it forever. I felt trapped, I couldn't eat, couldn't sleep, I wore long tops in summer to hide bruises, I lied to friends and family that I was ok and in the end became isolated completely..
Some people in authority removed my daughter and I from where we lived.. And I can honestly say that those people saved my life... And my daughter gave me a reason to keep going.. And to live.
This time last year I felt I wasn't worthy to be loved, I was a terrible partner and a terrible mother and that I felt I deserved the abuse as I was such an awful person who constantly made him angry. The past months I've been in safety with my daughter has taught me that..
I am worthy
I am a good mother
I am a good person
I didn't deserve to be abused
Going into 2021 I feel optimistic about the future with my little girl, its going to be a bumpy road with upcoming court hearings but I know I'm in control of my life now rather than letting someone else have control over me.
My daughter and I don't have much, but we have each other.. And she's my world and I'm hers.
Just wanted to spread a little sentiment and love out there for those feeling down.. No matter how bad things are.. They will always turn around
:)