Do I sound rediculous to want things to be different? My mum dies when I was 11 and both grandparents when I was 10 and since then my family relationships just went downhill. My dad remarried two years after my mum passed (they were already separated and he was engaged when she died) and he up and moved my sisters and I to live with her and her son. Things were okay for a couple of months but my dad went back to being his emotionally abusive self and so did his wife. Once I turned 17 I left and haven’t spoken to home since. My sister was also abusive towards me so I’ve been ignoring her for years even though she’s been trying to reach out to me since she found out I’d had a baby but I’m trying to protect myself and my baby from all the hurt from the past and to stArt a fresh and therefore can’t bring myself to rekindle these relationships as too much has happened that can’t just be water under the bridge. I wish things were different but according to family members neither my dad or sister has changed and therefore there is no hope for a relationship to form with them