Op, I'm currently having treatment for alcohol addiction.
My behaviour when drinking has got worse and worse over the years to the point where I've had police visits as I become so aggressive.
I developed a physical addiction as well as mental - I had to drink throughout the day as otherwise I would be sweating and shaking from withdrawal. So recovery has been a long process for me.
My first step was to see my gp who was very supportive and not judgemental at all. (I really thought she would despise me and that put me off seeking help for a long time.) She arranged for blood tests to see how much I had damaged my liver, and she referred me to the local alcohol support service in my city.
It has been a long road for me but I now have medication prescribed, and regular telephone counselling with the support service. The counselling has been the most helpful, but also the most painful.
I drank to keep from having to feel my feelings of pain and sadness. I was running away from them. For my whole life I've been eating my feelings, smoking my feelings, and now drinking them. At least the first two didn't destroy my relationships and hurt others.
Now I am sober and it's a great feeling.
Please seek help - you are young, you have no physical dependence yet, you can turn this around. Believe me, you don't want to get to the stage I was at.
Feel free to PM me if you like xx