Another night lying in bed crying.
I have been with my partner three years we have one year old babies and I have an older child from a previous relationship.
I am honestly confused about who is damaging our relationship he is convinced it is me- I am a little ocd about cleaning and I have trust issues from being cheated on.
When we argue my partner gets very aggressive in his tone and has shoved me a few times.
This weekend we have a date night planned for months due to lockdowns etc. Then last week his mates decided tonight would be their Xmas drinks. Partner said he wasn't fussed on going but I said I didn't mind but would he not get drunk as I didn't wanna have to do the nights with the babies on my own as I'd be tired for our date night (our boys aren't sleeping g yet) he said he wouldn't get drunk. Wednesday arrives abs it turns out he was taking over the organising of these drinks (that he wasnr fussed on) I mentioned again would he not get drunk and he went off on one. Then he didn't speak to me until today which was another argument and telling me how little he is looking forward to tomorrow night. Off out he went and he landed home completely drunk called me a fat cnut and told me how much he dislike me. He has ow passed out sleeping. He is always like this when he drinks I can't take much more of it.
I got crisps at midnight the other night as I was peckish and he said I was disgusting- I'm a size 8
Yes I have a flabby belly but I had c sections it's been hard to get my tummy flat again. Is this worth breaking up my babies family and my elder child having upheaval again