Hey.. Me and my ex broke up recently and I’m taking it really hard. I need someone to talk to ect.. I don’t really have any friends I can talk to hence the reasoning for this post.
Basically mine and my ex’s sex life was basically becoming non existent he would rather watch porn than try to do anything with me or when I’d try anything with him he’d like pretend to be asleep. I told him how it was making me feel about him watching porn because he would rather do that than touch me. When me and him did have sex he was never able to ejaculate in me he used to but he just would never. He said he’d stop watching porn ect and show me more attention but that wouldn’t last long. He thinks my issue was with him watching porn but it wasn’t it’s the fact he would rather have a wank and watch porn than go near me. He had a secret phone which he would sit watching it on, I broke up with him because he was hiding things and lying about it to me to my face even though I could see it with my own two eyes. He ended up buying me flowers promising me he would show me more attention and stop watching porn but it didn’t happen once again. He made me feel so small he had me and he wasn’t interested what’s so ever in me. The last straw was him watching porn on my sons tablet. Which I think is disgusting. Anyway we ended up arguing and he ended up leaving and going back to his mums house took all his stuff and moved out. He was telling me he loved me but wanted time away from me and he’d be back. Anyway I looked on his Facebook and he had added girls and he was liking there photos and they were liking his. This was literally about 2/3 hours after he left our home. So I said to him what’s going on you said you want some time to your self and your sat speaking to girls. He then proceeded to tell me that he wants time to be single and find him self. But at the same time telling me he loves me and wants to be with me? Completely messing with my head. I’m the end i blocked him. He had a delivery for his car that came to my house so I messaged him to let me know and he asked me to ring him so we could speak. I mentioned him speaking to girls and he put the phone down. No communication what so ever. I feel so sick, I can’t eat I can’t sleep. I thought he loved me but I can see now he doesn’t. I couldn’t imagine wanting to speak to anyone else or to sleep with any else. He told me he’s speaking to someone else and that she’s blonde and that he loves a blonde. Then he told me that he’s slept with my friend and started laughing about it. I’ve tried messaging him over and over again asking him why he’s doing this to me and he’s just ignoring me. I don’t know what I have done so bad to him all I wanted was him to want to have sex with me instead of watching porn. I feel so ugly and disgusting. I did everything for him I cooked I cleaned I got his life back on track I helped him get his job. I never thought he would ever just leave me like this:(