I didn't know where else to put this as I never talk to friends or family about this stuff but needed to get it out.
I've recently moved abroad to join my husband and daughter. We've been together 15 years and it's always been a bit tumultuous. To be honest I thought that was good as it was the opposite to my previous relationship that failed.
Long story short once I got out here it just didn't click for me, we were having more fights and he was out a lot more than I'd hoped seen as I had just made the move here.
I was thinking it was time to call it a day anyway and then tonight his iPad was open. There were messages on there from 2 years ago from his birthday. A girl I had raised issues about then and got told she's no one just a friend. Yeah yeah, so I find messages from her from that night saying 'if you're still having stuff with your ex then I won't bother'. We were I thought happily married at that point. Wow!!! What an idiot I am!
So now I have to return to the U.K. with no home, no car, very few belongings. Thank God I still have my job!
If this was a one off I would probably try and get through it but this is the last straw in a long line of betrayals. Although I don't know if he's ever actually cheated, I know he's made girls believe he's single and had inappropriate conversations with many over the years. I feel like it was always harder to leave than just stay and we have a child.
I don't even know what to do, I can't even get to the main airport by myself with all our luggage. And I don't want him to be trying to talk me out of it again. I've tried to leave so many times. I feel so alone.