Hi all,
I’ll try keep this brief but I’ve got a ridiculous crush that I’m struggling to get over.... it’s my smallest sons teacher 🙈
I changed my smallest ones school in June to a fab village school, it’s fantastic and it’s great there. He moved up to the next year group and settled well. I noticed a few weeks into September his teacher was holding him back to the end of the line, was very smiley towards me and was asking my weekends etc. I thought he was being nice to help settle us in, as to be honest I was trying to do the school runs as quick as possible due to not really knowing any of the parents still.
I made of point of trying to be more social to all, including teacher. Well we made eye contact, he gave me this big goofy smile and I realised I’m in trouble.
Each week I start the week well, trying not to make eye contact, trying to get out of there quickly. But we always end up locking eyes and I swear I feel sexual tension.
It’s got worse now as my oldest is isolating, so teacher is bringing smallest to my car. I try to get out quickly but he lingers to chat.
He’s very nervous around me a lot of the time, my mums asked what I’ve done to him to make him nervous, now I’m worried he knows somehow and I’ve put him on edge, or made him uncomfortable? It’s a fantastic school, I don’t want to to mess it up at all for my smallest.
Teacher is married (I’ve noticed his ring but he’s never mentioned his wife to me, just his kids)
I’m married but it’s not in a great spot, maybe it’s escapism?
I feel like a horrible person, I’m so conflicted with myself. I’m not that kind of person at all to go after a married man, nor would I try anything. But I just can’t get him out my head.
But I’m really struggling, it’s not like I can cut contact? I’ve got no one else to do the school runs apart from me. I try to just keep my head down like I said, but when we make eye contact and he smiles at me I’m doomed again.