I'm trying so hard to stop myself doing something stupid because I know I won't be able to stop if I do.
I'm tired of this I'm just so tired of the same shit. I can never do anything right I can never say anything right, I always seem to be wrong.
I see no end.
My gorgeous baby boy has to put up with me as his shit mother that stays with a stupid, thick, lazy bastard as a husband to keep face.
I am a fake I spent the evening on the phone to a friend saying how she should be choosy when looking for a partner when I have have to live with a narcissist man child.
I'm stupid just so stupid. Even after he was repeatedly pushing me and twisting my arm behind my back. I kept going to him for comfort but he kept hitting me. What is wrong with me.
Im still sat in the same place he left me. In the dark living room, my soul aching. Just how did I get to this point in my life. When I was younger I
I would sit in the dark front room when everyone was asleep and just cry about how shit my life was. It's like I'm back to that point in my life.