Hi please don't judge as I've been bullied so much, had a bad relationship, so have never learnt what a good relationship looks like but I just though somethings not right please explain to me why he's doing this . Ive had relationship problems for a while ,but he's said sorry for saying mean things or says fair enough last time he bought me flowers but then he repeated all the things he said that was mean. He has resented me for having health issues, asthma , severe allergies, ive had near anaphacis sorry for smells ,huge rashes whole body ,gasping for air so I ran to open up a window he said he got annoyed with way I opened the windows, im annoying as I fall over ,im hard to love cos of my allergies, as he had to get rid of his stuff I couldn't breathe, and had whole body rashes , he apologised for recently, he mocks me ,ig makes noises when I talk, or pulls a face ,accuses me of being difficult 😢 when I needed his help, I rarely ask for help 😢 then when I say or explain to not speak to me like this he ither dose it more or say im going on at him ,I only said to not mock me or pull horrid face , at me, he's like this out the blue when stressful times happen, other times he listens then goes back to mocking me , shaking head, when I said im going talking about my feelings how he makes me feel he says your feelings in a horrid way. I said how much this upsets me im sick of it, I said it made be want to divorce him it affect s me so much, he said good luck with divorce papers, he then went out bought me flowers said sorry but next day continued belitting me, when I said not to do that he didn't seem to care. When I had health concerns over his treatment that was valid as studies prove it he said my concerns where me trying to ruin things control things, when I said other times those same things hurt me belittling didn't acknowledge this and said I turn things round to me, but I was pointing out his sarcastic oh no , mocking when I gave opinions, thought s feelings I said im only say something about what your doing that isn't very nice and to stop, he said women don't know when to shut up, or as a joke that or makes comments I can see why men where sexist, he uses my own reaction against me , when he's horrid, I try to stay calm , and talk, other times if I stick up for myself he says im being bolshy or I have an attitude, I dont I just told me pleaded with him to show me respect if I talk I cant share anything without him getting annoyed , ive done so much for him be there for him, cooked cleaned, massages, emotional support, being happy , anything is used against me, or he gets annoyed about anything at random, if I stand up for myself he said I was backchatting, he is very kind empathetic to others not me , im at my tether ,he doesn't know how he feels about me he said then claims to love me, and he said he seems it then says he's only saying it to keep the peace, if I do nice things, he has said im just doing it for my self or I have an agenda which I dont , im thinking of everyone. He gives me false hope he will change, my heads spinning. I'm not a doormat ,where do I go from here, ? I dont want this environment for my child how many chances do I give? If I leave i need support so many let me down ppl encouraged me to stay , not understand how this situation is affecting me ive tried to be strong but im not a robot im sad its like this.