I think growing up things weren't always right at home but I put a lot of it down to my father being a d1ck and my mother taking a lot of stress out onto me. He's long gone now.
The relationship over the past few years between my mother and I improved. I think maybe it was because of her grandchild across the world and my mother has no knowledge of using the Internet or phones and I was the only link between the family abroad and home. They send me pictures regularly and I show them to my mother at home.
Things changed this year though. My mother had some explosive episodes to me this year. About 3 or 4 altogether this year. They were all the same in nature. There was a quite spell from her and her just being off with me. For instance, I would get ready in the morning for work and say 'I'm off now, will see you later' and there was no response from her and I was ignored. Or other times if I was at home she would she ready to go out for a walk and storm out the door without a word. I felt a lot of it had roots in her son. My brother who also lived at home, this behaviour from my mother would come about at a time, when my brother would be off. Like he would be in his room and he would hide out there for weeks and only get up at night time. There was also a strong smell of weed many nights from his room. My mother was not happy with him and her problems with him manifested in her giving me the silent treatment. As if I was responsible for my brothers drink and drug binges. The mothers silent treatments were always broken by her flying off the handle and into explosive rants to me. Like one of her rants occurred when I asked to get a pit from the press. She's hates me because I wasn't born with a cock even though I do my best at home it's never good enough.
My mother is a hoarder. The sitting room was an absolute mess. I said last week that I'm interested in cleaning the room at the weekend to have a clean room for the winter and for the Christmas. I didn't dump anything that she owned. I moved a few things about to create more space and used some hoover bags to store some more things into compact bags. I started cleaning on Saturday and it took me all day long. I was still cleaning on Sunday. The room looked well in the end.
Over the course of the weekend, I bought some supplies online so I could attempt to try and make something of our Christmas. I bought a candleBridge set, and an aerial for the TV to get it working again.
This morning I got up and my mother was in a mood because my brother was still in bed since he came home from a night out on Friday. My mother has some more fresh stuff and storage gone into the sitting room again mainly 3 clothes rails, a clothes horse, 2 other chairs and one of her storage luggage bags.
I was distraught. I spent all weekend cleaning the sitting room, just for my mother to undo my work and put new storage stuff in the room. I wanted a clean warm room to sit into.
I would also like to make something of our Christmas but she is behaving as if there's no point because my brother probably more than likely won't take part in anything to do with family or Christmas or a Christmas day dinner. She definitely has a notion that Christmas is only for her son. If her son displayed an interest in a Christmas she would probably fall over herself to put on the best ever.
Do I cancel all my online orders containing the Christmas decorations and the TV aerial and to fcuk with the family. I see from my online banking the payments have not been processed yet so my orders probably are not fulfilled.