I’ll try and keep this as brief as possible.
My boyfriend and I dated for a year. It was very tumultuous and I think we partly weren’t suited and partly I just wasn’t in the right place for a relationship. We broke up over a year ago and it was extremely painful, for me in particular. We tried to stay friends but in the end I couldn’t. However we started talking again in May this year and since then we speak all the time. I wanted to try again back then but he made it clear it wouldn’t work out and he didn’t want to.
The thing is we talk all the time on the phone sometimes 3-4 hours a day. Last week he referred to me as his best friend. Today he said wouldn’t it be fun to go somewhere over Christmas and I said yeh we should and he said “well we shouldn’t really. We should really move on” and I said what do you mean and he said oh we’d end up having sex and I said oh I don’t think we would and he said oh ok, then we wouldn’t then. And the conversation just moved on. In the last two days we’ve both said as well that we’re on dating sites and have been talking to people.
I think I’ve accepted it’s over and more than that I don’t want to be with someone who doesn’t want to be with me. I guess I still feels bit sad though.