Hi everyone I'm new to here. I'm 21 and I've been with my partner for 2 years, we have a 9 month old little girl. 2 days before I was induced I moved to his area away from family, I had stayed at his mums with him so I knew the way to the shops, parks etc
When we met he told me he loved going out, was very affectionate, loving and over all a great boyfriend. He would kiss me, hug me, care about me. 5 months later and it got less and less to where if I didnt initiate affection it would never happen. This first time I brought it up he seemed to care but nothing ever changed. He eventually stopped doing things I enjoy too, in the last year weve been out together twice. I thrive from being outdoors but all he will do is stay in and watch a movie with me, if I'm lucky. When our baby was 6weeks lockdown happened, during it he spent all his time on the ps4 as I cleaned up, looked after the baby, made food, learnt to breastfeed and all that. I was in a lot of pain with a bad tear. I would get so stressed and just cry and cry and he took no notice of me. I've cried to him saying I'm sick of him not showing me any love or going out with me, he will shrug me off and make me feel like I'm starting an argument and that hea spent time with me because we watched a film together... Hes changed a bit now and plays with the baby when hes back from work, but me? Yh he might mess around now and then when he walks past, yh he might touch me with his foot in bed but it's not enough. I'm sad.
I cant move back home because it's really not suitable for a baby, my nan would have me for a bit but nothing permanent. This relationship is draining me, i go for 10min walks because I dont know the area enough to go further. I have no friends here. I'm lonely, I wake up to the same routine everyday. He comes in, plays with the baby and has a shower, he goes on his game till he sleeps. I see the same walls everyday. I want more. But I dont know how to leave, I also feel sad separating the baby from him. Please can I have some advice