I am probably just needing people to bounce off, as much as anything.
I am heavily pregnant, due next month. Because of the timing, this pregnancy has pretty much coincided with lockdown: I have worked throughout but from home (and to be honest that was somewhat ad hoc, no meaningful structure really) from April through to August, and then I started working outside of the home in September but the company changed their policy for pregnant women so I had to be ‘suspended on medical grounds’ once I was in the third trimester, which was in the third week of September.
I have moved in with my partner now (we weren’t living together before this.) I’m finding it hard to adapt in some ways. He works from home, I obviously don’t want to sound as if I am being resentful of this but being entirely honest it does make life a bit difficult, he is in the house literally 24/7, I think he left it twice in the whole of last week once to come to the supermarket with me and once to go to a medical appointment. I know that must be hard for him. I do leave the house and try to give him some space, obviously at this stage of pregnancy I am seeing the midwife and going to the hospital. Plus I have a relative in my bubble so see him once a week which gives DP some space.
But the days feel absolutely endless. I generally end up going to sleep in the afternoons, but I feel so bloody lazy and slob like. I feel like my old life - where I was up and showered and out of the house by 7, and then had a busy day at work and in the evening would go to the gym (sometimes!) is a bit of a dream, it isn’t that I long for that old life back, more that I’m worried I’m turning into somebody else.
I’m really hoping once the baby is here I will meet other mums at classes and groups but so much seems to be closed, and I am struggling with feeling so horribly isolated.