Dp and I broke up a few weeks ago after a slow and painful death.
He was never happy, he wanted me to be someone totally different (thin, with no opinions and to never question him).
The thing about toxic relationships is that they’re not always hideous, you are so in love with the good side of them that you can see past the shit. I was totally addicted to the massive highs after the crashing lows.
I’m having to relearn that life isn’t meant to be so damn dramatic all the time and a few mundane months will fix me better than anything else.
He blocked me everywhere which is amusing, because when we initially broke up I basically begged him to, which he wouldn’t because he wasn’t controlling the situation. But it’s been so great for my state of mind, the no contact rule is very empowering and lifting if anyone else wants to try it.
If anyone else is having a rough time of it tell your story and I’ll try my best to help!